1 Week Old

Well after one week I am still flying high. I keep waiting for the usual crash that comes about 3-5 days after I give birth, but it hasn't come yet and maybe it never will. It is a nice change from the slight depression that plagued me most of my pregnancy. I didn't tear so my bottom is pretty much healed and I've been going for walks every day and feeling fantastic and full of energy. I am tired too, underneath it all, but I am happy, really really happy. I am still quite elated and shocked that we have a boy. It's so taboo to admit that you really want one sex over the other, so taboo that I didn't even fully admit it to myself. But I must have really wanted a boy because I am just so excited to have one.

And what a boy! He is just so amazing. He is so calm and patient and quiet and beautiful. He lost a bit of weight while my milk was still coming in, but at today's weigh in he has nearly gained back his birth weight and is sitting at 5lbs 11oz. We have only had one really rough night and other than that he has been sleeping amazingly well. The past 2 nights in a row he has slept 6 hours straight, from 9:30pm to 3:30am. I have had to get up and pump around 1:30am because I am so horribly engorged. I love snuggling up to him all night long. Just knowing how fast they grow up is making me savour every little thing, especially since I have such a strong feeling that this is our last child. I didn't know I would feel this way, but I think now that we have a boy I am done. I have loved being pregnant and giving birth, and I love newborns, they are just so precious, but I think I am ready to move onto a new chapter in our lives.

The girls have been absolutely amazing during this transitional time. They are fascinated with their little brother and are eager to help change his diaper and fetch things for us. They love holding him and kissing him and so far there has been only one bout of jealousy. I was holding the boy and Nadia decided she wanted me all to herself and so she tried to push him off my lap. Other than that, she has been wonderful. Since my milk has come in she greatly looks forward to her nursing sessions before her nap and before bed at night. She has asked a few times to nurse during the day but hasn't freaked out about being told no while I feed her brother in front of her. So I am completely content with our nursing relationship, I am not overwhelmed with nursing 2 children because she only nurses twice a day. I am quite happy that she is still nursing, that we still have that bond and closeness together. Even Lily is getting some breast milk because I have been giving her the milk that I pump in the night. I am thrilled to be feeding all my babies right now.

As for his name, we have been using a name for the past 3-4 days, but we haven't officially committed yet. Rest assured that when we do, you all will know...